Put into practice.

There is a reason we are all here, whether that is for good or bad, that is what we decide. We are put into a world driven by anger, fear, and judgement. We are all affected by it so young, and we are trapped in a world thinking anger, fear, and judgement is just a part of life. But is that "good?"

Before this class, and before I found out about "The Four Agreements" I blamed the world for every problem I had. Nothing was ever my fault, for example all the lights are red, making me late for work, because the world hates me. There is some kind of crazy unknown force out there changing all these lights just to anger ME. Another example, I wanted to make the high school baseball team so bad. I got cut my 9th, 10th, and 11th grade year in high school. After being cut my 10th grade year I shut down. I blamed my previous coaches for not teaching me correctly, I blamed the high school coach for only choosing kids he knew. by now your probably saying get to the point right? I was in fear that my boss would judge me, based on MY actions. I was in fear I wasn't good enough to play baseball, also I was afraid I would let down my parents, grandparents, and myself.
Day by day I am learning how to own up to my actions, and how to analyze the situation. Another example, I used this one in class saying I thought my room mate stole my knifes. I felt so bad blaming him and then realizing it was my own ignorance that got in the way. To prevent this I need to work on my organization. I need to refile all my files, take a different approach to situations, and not to make assumptions.
With everything I have typed ask yourself, what makes you angry or sad? Is it because your scared of someone or something? Or is it simply because you judge everyone based on your history and surroundings? I'm still nineteen and I have so much to learn still, but being impeccable with my work and not judging is a great start.
I'm not 100% sure if this was what this post was suppose to be about. I read the notes from class, turned up some music and sat outside and just type. I may have done a little white boy dancing as well, but this was actually an assignment I enjoyed. I hated high school and never did my homework and I was always ashamed of my grades but I never did anything about it.Its time to change that, take responsibility and not blames others or judge others based off of my experiences.

My authentic self

          I'll start off by saying this class is so different compared to what I thought it was going to be about. I really thought this class was going to involve talking to work and important people efficiently. That was until I order the Luiz books a week before school started. I picked up The Mastery Of Love just to get an idea of the class and I could not put that book down.
          For a while now I haven't even been able to walk down the street with out having an anxiety attack thinking everyone is judging me. Judging the way I look, dress, and walk. I have constantly put myself down and I have always hid my true self. It has taken just these last few months to finally break out of that mind set. Before I would never have never even posted anything like this but I'm taking a risk and hopefully, one I wont regret.
          For the past few weeks I have loved this communications class. I have really enjoyed how it has shown me how to control my thoughts. Also this class has really forced me to really think out side the box and really challenge myself. I have now realized a lot of the stress I was putting on myself was just unnecessary. Day by day I am not learning how to apply The Four Agreement's to my live and it is slowly but surely peeling away all that stress.